actually, there’s a clear blue sky brightly shining sun outside, but it’s grey for me. I’m blegh. I have no motivation. I don’t want to be here but I don’t know where I want to be. There are some people I need to contact asap, yet can’t make myself reach for the phone. I want to be held but I want to be alone. I want to cry but there is no reason. I want to live a healthier, better lifestyle but it seems so much effort. I want to be nice to my body but I want it to happen just by my thinking about it. I want the energy to do everything I need and want to do, but all I can think of is curling up in bed for a week, reading and switching off.
But more than anything else, I want my baby. I want Ophelia here, curled up with me, purring and headbutting me. I miss her so much my heart aches today and my dreams have been filled with her lately. She’s the one thing which makes everything else easier.
Did something short-circuit in my brain last night?
*hugs*
It sounds like we’re both having hard times. A cat in the house does seem to make some things easier to deal with. When will you get to see Ophelia next?
*virtual hugs*
Sending you a smile through the ether…hope your muse and energy return soon.
summer hols – when I move her from my ex-housemate’s care to my Mum’s care and get to spend two weeks living with my darling again. It doesn’t help that I got a really strong feeling a week or so ago that she won’t be around by the time I’m finished here 🙁
*wraps virtual hugs around psyche*
Thanks. I hope so too
I think I had this short circuit, too. For a while last night, all I could do was look at pictures of Joe and cry. Very mopey and bleh and unmotivated today. Also have this vague paranoia that I’ve forgotten to do something and that it’s going to bite me in the ass… Very bad day emotionally.
Cat therapy is the best therapy for a grey-day mood.
*puts on cat suit and purrs and nuzzles Amber*
(Not the same thing, I know.)
You have lots of people who love you, even if they’re not there with you to show it. Including Ophelia. I’ll send some happy vibes in her direction too, and I’m sure she’ll be full of healing cat cuddles for you next time you’re over.
*many hugs*
I’m down in the dumps too, but I blame mine on a hormonal imbalance (also known as PMS). Although come to think of it, I have been under a lot of stress recently, so perhaps I also have non-hormonal reasons to cry.
In short: hope you feel better too.
theres a lot of downness going round.
I’m sorry Amber.
Thinking about you.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
May some warm energy come your way.
Look who found out her password again!
O Ms. Kitty Lady! Fear not: great waves of hugs & affection are coming your way.
This country is hell on smart women.
Faito!
xxoo
Re: Look who found out her password again!
i hear ya!!